It seems that a lot of folks experience a sense of restlessness at different periods of their lives. Graduation, whether high school or college, sometimes triggers that sense of uncertainty. Children leaving home/middle age is another period that can trigger a sense of questions about life in general. There are some that seem to make it through without having to deal with this questioning but, if most are honest, the feelings are very common. That has been the case for quite a while in my life. My children are basically grown and fairly self-sufficient, which is the goal as a parent, but it does leave a gap. In addition, the job I hold is not really what I want to do. It is what I have to do because of where we are and the necessity for me to work. That being said, I don't really know what I would do otherwise - this is basically what I've done since I graduated from college, other than raising children and maintaining a house. It always seems like there should be something more. This restlessness is lack of time with the Lord, listening to His quiet voice.
When I think of others in this world who have so little and yet have faith greater than mine, it really does make me ashamed. Americans take so much for granted. A friend is on a mission trip to Belarus. Before leaving, the group was told this may be the last time they get to go as the government is trying to keep evangelistic groups out. This makes it really difficult for my friend and the group as they care about the people they've met. This group has gone several times and have made friends there. Knowing they could face being forced to leave is not really an issue with them, but what could happen to the ones that live there is. One of the jokes that's made about the trip is that the group survives on a cucumber diet. They do serve meat to the group but when asked what kind of meat, their response is "It's meat." The animal the meat came from is normally not told so quite often, they just don't eat it. :)
This post started out as one on my own restlessness. I still struggle with it and will continue to do so, but the Lord is faithful. He has a plan and it is far better than anything I could dream up on my own. I just need to spend time with Him in quiet and listen.
Of course, I have 2 different guitar players playing at the same time, not together, not even the same song!!! That's okay - I enjoy hearing both play!
6 comments:
Ah restlessness. I know that so well. for me, it's wanderlust, and probably because we moved so often growing up. My inner clock tells me every 3 or 4 years it wants to move. Staying put is very hard, but as you say God has a plan and until we know what that is, best not to make any changes or moves.
It will all work out as it is mean't to and He'll let you know what, where and when.
Incog - Part of ours is also due to the fact that I have moved so many times in my life. We moved often as I was growing up and also have moved often in my married life! We've been here almost 5 years. That is almost a record! :)
Hello! Thank you so much for your comments on my blog. I am so thankful to finally find another blogger whose faith and values match mine so closely. If it's okay with you I will put a link to your blog on mine and would be honored to have mine listed on yours. I so understand the restlessness you are feeling. I've gone through it also. I think it has a lot to do with no longer having to take care of the kids after that being our number one job for so many years.
I look forward to reading your blog each day. Thank!
Kathy
Kathy,
Thank you for the sweet words. It is great to find some people who share your faith and values. I will add you to my blogroll. I look forward to reading your posts.
By the way - I also sing at church - adult choir, adult ensemble, solos, groups - whatever :)
Oh, sounds like you love music! I am a church pianist. I wish I could sing, but I'm happy playing.
Chris Tomlin has great music and I am familier with that song you mentioned.
Hi Strawberry,
Firstly thank you for the wonderful prayer you prayed for me.Everything went well and I am almost as good as new today!!!The tooth cavity has started healing really well.
Thanks again for the prayers
God definitely has a plan and he will carry it out.
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