For the past several days, I have been faced with some interesting but difficult choices. Processing the pros and cons of the different choices, comparing, going back and forth in the decision-making process has certainly proved to be a growing experience. For those of us who proclaim to be followers of Christ, determining God's will is the point from which to base our decisions. However, sometimes hearing and or knowing God's will is not easy. This has been one of those times. My spouse has said that if there isn't a peace for a particular choice, that either one will probably be within God's will for us. This has to have been one of the more difficult times as both choices are appealing for different reasons. Evaluating each one and trying to come to a final choice has been almost agonizing! Part of that stems from an uncertainty about the unknown; part also stems from the desire to be available for my family; and part from the interest and challenge of doing something completely different.
My spouse again has said that this needs to be a choice that is right for me - not based on what anyone else thinks or feels, not based on disappointing any one of the parties, not based on anything other than where God wants me to be and what would be a satisfying choice for me.
Time is now the decision making end. I have to let both parties know what my choice is, and even though I really would like for things to be a little clearer one way or the other, I still have to make the decision. If it was easy - there wouldn't be as much growth, I guess!