I serve as an administrative assistant (just a fancy way of saying secretary) to one of our assitant superintendents of our public school district. In my position, I have a multitude of tasks that need to be handled each day. However, in looking around our building, it is easy to see that there is really no place to go as far as any advancement. If I stay through retirement - I will likely be doing the same job or one very similar to it. Is that okay? I'm not sure it is okay with me. That is the dilemma I am dealing with right now. I had someone ask me what I think I will be doing in 10 years. My response - I will hopefully still have a job but will have advanced beyond the first responsibilities. I would like to be known as someone who can and will get the tasks accomplished. However, I would also like to be able to handle increased responsibilities and possibly move into something more. However - I would also like time to be here for our son before he leaves home in a couple of years. I would like time to spend with our daughter, son-in-law, and new granddaughter(which we are getting to do this weekend! :)). I may have the opportunity to make a change to something that would give the opportunity for advancement but would not have the flexibility that my current position allows. I have struggled with this for quite some time now (and have a couple of posts about this).
I think my true calling is to be a wife and mother - which is why nothing else really satisfies me any longer. I had the privilege and ability to stay home for 9 years with our children and truly loved it (well most of the time - but there were days!!!) But then - I really get pumped when I get to meet with our employees regarding their benefits or accomplish some task that has been looming for a while. The title should read Winds of Confusion - as I think that's where I am right now!
I am going to rock my granddaughter and spoil her some more before they leave tomorrow. Maybe that will help put things into perspective. Thanks for listening - er - reading! :)