Change - that word can bring up all different kinds of feelings! If you have dealt with any major changes you know the uncertainty and sometimes the fear that comes from change. If you stop and think about it - we deal with change everyday of our lives. Even when we feel like everything is the same - it never is. Each day is different and brings new challenges to face. How we handle these changes is the question - do we take them in and see them as an opportunity to grow - do we dread them and turn away hoping they will go away?
In our family, we have faced a multitude of changes from moves across the country, job changes, loss of jobs, family changes - just like the rest of the world. Ours are certainly not unique. As I look back - in the middle of all of these changes is Jesus. He has been there through each one and even when we turned away or moved away from Him, He has never moved away from us. He is absolutely faithful!
I am having to deal with some major changes in my life right now - learning to be a mother-in-law is a challenge for me. I want to have a great relationship with our son-in-law without being overbearing or interfering. He is a wonderful young man and loves our daughter and granddaughter.
Learning to be a mother to our adult daughter is also a challenge for me right now. She is a beautiful, highly intelligent young woman. She has a tremendous amount of potential and ability to do whatever she wants in her life. She loves being a wife and mother and I am very proud of her. However, she doesn't really need a mother in the way she did when she was younger. Some days I handle it better than others.
Learning to let go is another challenge for me. Our son is a junior in high school this year and has started thinking about colleges. He is extremely intelligent, can be very sweet and has the ability to do anything he wants. He is not concerned about distance from home - just that the college has the degree he wants to pursue (and it is in a warm area!). I hate to think about both of my children being gone from home. I loved being a mother to my children, playing with them, reading with them, just being with them was a real joy.
The biggest challenge is a major change for any woman. Some days I think I am losing my mind - others day I wish I were!!! When the nurse called me to give me the results of the blood work, I asked her if this meant being suicidal or homicidal as well! She just laughed and said "Of course not!" Easy for her to say - she isn't dealing with this right now.
Back to the original thought - in all of these challenges - Jesus is able and ready to help me carry these and work through them, if I will just let Him. I just have a hard time letting go.